Sad Snickles

I'd like to change my blog name to Sad Snickles. I miscarried my baby today. There are no words to describe the pain that I feel in my heart, that there was a baby there and now it's gone. Its like someone has ripped one of my kittens from my arms and is taking it away forever. I have this yearning to be a mother so badly, and I jsut can't seem to get there. It doesn't help that most of my friends have just had babies or are pregnant right now. When is it my turn? Why isn't it my turn?